ABBA

ABBA's Assurance and Invitation, a word from His perspective. I, Laura, quieted my soul, listened to His still, small voice in my core, spoke aloud what I heard, recorded my words on my phone, and transcribed the recording here. His voice, calm and kind, comes through Holy Spirit. We are called to worship God in spirit and in truth. Here's what I heard Him say:

There is coming a day of vengeance, says the Lord. A day when My wrath will be poured out on all the earth, and under the earth, and above the earth. (Deut. 32:1-44)

I remember.

I remember the lights.

Red,

Rotating,

Shining through the lowered window shade

At night.

No siren.

I heard

Through the wall

My top bunk

His queen-sized headboard

Separated only by the wall.

I remember his breathing,

A repetitive pain,

In sync

With the rhythm

Of his heartbeat.

His breathing shallow.

I remember his sound

An enduring-through-suffering expression.

No complaint.

No “why me?”

No words.

I used to do nice things to get affirmation, but that drained others because they didn’t have supply to give. We can’t get water from a leaky sieve. The world uses the term narcissistic, covert and overt; but God’s term is selfishness. We each go our own way. 

God taught me He’s the Source of my needs; To Him, I must turn; He’ll supply everything for me. Only from Him will I get all I biblically need, then I’ll have supply to minister to others He’s called me to meet.