I remember.
I remember the lights.
Red,
Rotating,
Shining through the lowered window shade
At night.
No siren.
I heard
Through the wall
My top bunk
His queen-sized headboard
Separated only by the wall.
I remember his breathing,
A repetitive pain,
In sync
With the rhythm
Of his heartbeat.
His breathing shallow.
I remember his sound
An enduring-through-suffering expression.
No complaint.
No “why me?”
No words.
I remember mom’s voice
On the phone
With the doctor
Calm.
She was being the nurse,
Always the nurse.
I remember watching
Through the bedroom door
The stretcher,
Big people,
strangers
uniformed
Low voices.
There may have been a command,
“Close the door.”
Observing,
not understanding
Happening
Not panicked
Peace
The next week, His body died
But his spirit was already alive
God birthed his spirit the year before
He’s in eternity with the Lord, forevermore
God birthed my spirit too
I look forward now
No turning back
My past is under the blood of Jesus Christ
My life, memories, self -- He redeemed.
I look up to the Cross
Jesus Christ, My Savior, shares His inheritance with me.
His ABBA adopted me.
I am his daughter, born twice, by the water and the spirit
Jesus’ PERFECT Father raises me.
I’ve been bought with a price
The precious blood of Christ
I’m no longer mine
His life now lives in me.
I’m His inheritance.
His Spirit seals me.
His Spirit cleanses me.
His Spirit teaches me.
His Spirit convicts me.
His Spirit comforts me.
His Spirit leads me.
His Spirit corrects me.
His Spirit encourages me.
His Spirit fills me.
His Spirit flows through me.
When I yield . . . to the Lord.
Jesus Christ is the Head of the Body
I am a cell therein.
Hydrating in the Word
Confessing the sin
Holy Spirit exposes
which hinders the fellowship.
Holy Spirit indwells me,
When I let Him in.
Christ in you
The Hope of glory.
Not mine
His
His alone
My hands are off.
Anoint me, Oh Lord,
For the work
Of the ministry.
Humility, you rule
In the place where
Pride once occupied.
He’s swept clean this house
And in His Name
He’s bought title, deed
And mystery
He opens the treasure trove
Redeeming all for His Glory.