I miss you.
The innocence bubble popped when my dad died. He was never coming home again. Then a new, different normal began.
I remember realizing when in college, I had lived half my life with my father on earth and half with him in heaven. Correspondence with my grandmother gave me insight into my dad. She couldn't get him to do a thing. It wasn't until LOVE came to him, in the form of my mother, did she see him DO the things she could never motivate him to do. LOVE is a force. GOD IS LOVE.
Moving forward a few years, now a mother of young children, I still missed my dad. I realized there were living people who knew him. Inquiring with these friends and relatives, they shared their memories and stories. The illusion bubble popped! My dad was not perfect. I needed this enlightening reality. The truth is: only GOD is PERFECT.
Moving affected relationships. Location changes, some think these are solutions to solve old problems. This may help for a while and eventually the old creeps back in, we realize the location wasn't the problem. The problem lies within us. SIN lies within.
Life changes, like the empty nest season, affect the atmosphere. It's quieter. There is more space. Now the glaring flaws cannot be ignored by busyness. The cacophony of joyous sounds, delightful distractions, closes down to silence within the walls. The internal dialogue intensified, often not good. A mental madness makes for a mess. Voids fill up. Vacuums suck. My mind became an uncaptured-thought pond. Accusatory words swam like worms on a hook held by a menacing, maniacal, megalomaniac. The enemy's phishing stirred to the surface floods of selfishness, sins, and strongholds. Adjustments needed! Adjustments made, calm returns. Now that my mom has passed, her location changed this past September, a whole new set of nouns bubble up.
Another bubble pops. Someone is not the center of their world. LOVE cared enough, risking rejection, to speak the Truth. Discipline hurts. But LOVE disciplines for our good.
Our entire world, God, The Almighty, The Perfect FATHER, ~ LOVE ~ put us in TIMEOUT! He's been shaking everything that can be shaken. Only what is eternal remains. All our idols, securities, sandy, shaky ground are coming down. GOD is JEALOUS for YOU and for ME!
Like the blind man in Mark, who knew Jesus as the Son of David, I too have cried out for MERCY. The systems of this world exasperate, frustrate, and the deceptions blind us even to ourselves. I appealed to the Highest Heaven, to my ABBA, Jesus Christ's Father and mine too. He adopted me through Christ's Blood and Cross. I can approach boldly His Throne of Grace.
Refined, I wasn't. Self-controlled? Nope. A screaming, crying, emotionally-distraught human being, that's what I was. I wasn't an adult, though the outside body has seen 5 decades. Internally I was like a 2 year old. Crying to my ABBA making known that the bully was beating me up again.
LOVE let me cry. LOVE heard me. LOVE listened when no one else could or would. LOVE let me give it all to HIM. LOVE already fixed the mess on Calvary. LOVE reminds me again who I am. LOVE made me. LOVE sent me to you.
I testify! THE TRIUNE GOD IS REAL! THEY ALL WORK TOGETHER, EACH HAS A ROLE, ALL ARE GOD. GOD IS ONE. I am not GOD but I know HIM. I AM LOVES ME, HEARS ME, HELPS ME, HOLDS ME, SAVES ME, EQUIPS ME, ENLIGHTENS ME, FATHERS ME, COMFORTS ME, DISCIPLINES ME.
The bully, the father of lies, who's been around a long time, setting up his wicked web, waiting, stealing, killing, and destroying everything. That's who the bully is. he used to own me. I could not resist him. I followed Folly down to the end of her path, where death and destruction lie. I testify; you don't want to go there! this wicked master sucks any and all life out of whomever he can. He doesn't want you to see him. he disguises himself, ventriloquises his voice, uses people, personal pronouns, and adds prefixes to root words changing their meaning. he distracts like a bad magician. We all know his SUCK. his most important goal? he wants to erase the reality that The MOST HIGH GOD exists. he doesn't want you to know how powerful you could be if you were in Christ.
The devil thought he won at Calvary. He thinks he's won again. Oh NO he didn't! RESURECTION POWER, from on HIGH, REIGNS, In JESUS, THE CHRIST'S NAME! OUR FATHER REIGNS! THE BRIDE REIGNS WITH HER BRIDEGROOM.
The enemy of our souls knows no grace. He wants you to know no grace with him. Grace, a concept, I am still learning to grasp. I am still learning my NEW CREATION identity. I am still on this SANCTIFICATION journey.
NOW, when I feel the enemy's tactics, I PRAY for others experiencing the same, I THANK Christ, the BURDEN BEARER, and I PRAISE The MOST HIGH GOD, who's plan will NEVER FAIL. I WORSHIP my PERFECT HEAVENLY FATHER. I SOAK IN HIS PRESENCE so I AM SATURATED WITH HIS LOVE. This enables me to LOVE HIM BACK, to LOVE myself, and to LOVE others.
There's ONE relationship and ONE location change which matters.
DO NOT MISS THIS!
The KINGDOM of GOD is Righteousness, Peace, and Joy in the Holy Ghost. There is Freedom and Liberty in God's Kingdom. Christ is The WAY, The TRUTH, and The LIFE. No human comes to God, the Father, except by Christ Jesus, the Son of God.
ACCEPT JESUS CHRIST, God's free gift! GOD'S PRICELESS GIFT! YOUR PENALTY PAYING, PAID-IN-FULL, DEBT-CANCELING, WRATH-OF-GOD RECEIVING, PROPITIATION PROVIDED BY PROVIDENCE, PRINCE of PEACE!
The Holy Spirit, God, empowers Christ-followers. He sealed us for Eternity. Faith from God, given to humankind, to believe in His Only Begotten Son, Jesus the Christ, brings Eternal LIFE.
Wouldn't you like to switch kingdoms? Turn and LIVE! God, the Father, can translate you from the kingdom of darkness (Have you had enough of the SUCK?) into the Kingdom of His Son, JESUS THE MESSIAH. GOD'S KINGDOM is BIG ENOUGH for all of us! COME HOME!
I don't want to miss you anymore. I want to know you're safe and sound at HOME. I want to see you in ETERNITY. I WANT ALL HUMANKIND IN HEAVEN! GET in before the DOOR shuts! The WRATH of GOD is starting to REIGN down. I don't want you to experience that. Jesus did FOR you. You don't have to but the choice remains yours.
HEAVEN OR HELL?
I HOPE YOU CHOOSE HEAVEN! That's where I'm goin' by the GRACE of GOD. ALL GLORY to THE TRIUNE GOD! Thank You ABBA. Thank You Jesus. Thank You Holy Spirit.